I Am Sorry

I am sorry

And I've always been

For one thing or the other

I’m born into a world where I am constantly reminded

That I should be sorry and that I should not have it any other way

I am sorry because even though some people hate me

I do not hate them back

I am sorry because I feel only love can drive out hatred

I am sorry because no matter how hard I try to be the ideal child

They still find a speck of dust in the vast ocean that is my demeanor

I am sorry because no matter how much generous a human being I try to be

People don’t cease to zoom into the flaws

But despite of that I continue to believe in myself when no one else believes in me  

And trust me, I am sorry for that

The people who abandon me and choose to leave

Are like scars on my soul

With every second scar my skin grows rough and ugly

But this time if you choose to be one of those scars

I will still care and love, like always

And I am sorry for that

I love, and therefore I am

What is the essence of our transient being if we don’t feel the need to love?

I am sorry I theorize that we’re all broken into pieces and that only love can join us back

People continue to forego my love, but still I continue to love, and fiercely so,

With the sum of all my broken pieces

I’m really sorry I do

I have dreams. Indestructible dreams that won’t let me sleep.

Oh, but I’m not sorry this time.  Why?

Because when in the day I allow the world to slave me and my thoughts,

I wait for the dark. That is when my dreams breathe life into my scarred soul.

That is when I, and only I, have the key to my conviction.

That is when I can unapologetically hope for a better world

And I will not let you snatch away my hope and crumble my dreams

Even if I belong to this world, my dreams solely belong to me.

And mind you, I will never be sorry for that.

                                                   

Liebster Award

To start with, I must thank my friend and one of my favorite bloggers Vani Devraj for nominating me for the Liebster Award :) She blogs at Pearls Of Catharsis

For all of you who don't know what the award means, you can read the details in the image given below 

Questions I've been asked:

1. What is the last thing you ate?

- I'm just eating a burger while typing this. Big foodie I am yaa

2. The mystery behind your name? (Who kept it, meaning etc.)

- My mother kept my name. 'Ishita' apparently means superior and therefore it is a synonym for Hindu Goddess Durga. 

3. Any dream you remember? Then share it. :D

- I am an avid procrastinator so most of the time I'm sleeping and hence dreaming. I hope we could record our dreams and replay them because it's so difficult to remember them once you get up. So TBH, can't remember anything vividly to answer this :( 

4. Your ultimate aim in life? 

- In the words of John Lennon- to be happy. 

5. Has life given you lemons?

- *Burps* I guess that was the lemonade. 

6. Do you believe in ghosts?

- According to Newton, every action has an equal and opposite reaction. So since I believe in God, I do believe that there exists an opposite force but definitely not equal in power. Most of the time, the ghost resides in our very own soul and keeps haunting our desires. 

7. Are you creative? If yes then share your talent. :)

- I think creativity has more to do with the way your thought process functions rather than how good you are in an art, dance or writing as in my case. And in that matter, I can be sure to say that the rebel inside me does not let my thoughts be ordinary.

8. Name a book that changed your outlook towards life.

- It has to be Tuesdays With Morrie by Mitch Albom. He urgently needs to write more books! *Sigh*

9. How many true friends do you have?

- Around 5. 

10. Do you like me? ^_^

- I love you, Vani !

11. Are you satisfied with these questions?

- Hell yes!

Facts About Me

My last post being 20 Facts About Myself , I would like to avoid repeating the same facts in another blog post.

I further nominate Pallavi Bhatia, Yashasvi Shailly, Rudrank Riyam and Traci Lawrence for the award. If anybody else wants to be nominated you can let me know in the comments below and I will tag you :) 

My Questions

If you choose to accept the award, then these are my questions for you: 

1. When did you feel that you should start blogging? 

2. What is your wildest fantasy? 

3. If you get to chose your Heaven after dying, how would you like it to be?

4. What is that one thing you swear by?

5. What would be your comeback if someone criticizes your writing skills?

6. If you have to listen to one music artist or band all your life, who would that be?

7. Who is your favorite writer and why?

8. What do you think this world needs the most?

9. If you were Adam/Eve, what kind of civilization would you have initiated? 

10. What is your idea of love?

11. One thing that brings out the best in you? 

Happy Reading!